Archive for February, 2006

The GOOD comes BACK.

Posted in Stuff on February 28, 2006 by Leonard

What a whirlwind past week it was.

Last week, I QUIT MY JOB.

Just up and walked out. It was a startup that seemed promising in the beginning but the promise began to plummet slowly over the past few months, and the staff began dropping off one-by-one, either due to the increasingly unstable bosses’ tempermental tirades or just because they plain stopped being paid.

I was safe; having all the experience under my belt made me valuable to the company and I was sure that no matter what, the boss would do whatever it took to keep me, and he did, despite the warning signs going off all around me.

Last week, having lost his personal assistant, the boss did the unthinkable. He asked me to download his personal information from his Blackberry and upload it to his new Blackberry. My title there is EDITOR, meaning, I edit film and video. Clearly, this was a bad situation happening and I took it as an insult.

Then I walked out and never came back.

I think JOBS ARE LIKE RELATIONSHIPS. If you’re gonna quit, then quit. Don’t let it linger.

1. Because the more you stick around, the harder it is to move on.
2. You waste so much energy being in the “I’m still fucked up” mode that you are FILLED with it and therefore, NEW GOOD can’t come in and FILL YOU and REFRESH YOU. That’s called baggage and both employers AND new guys/girls hate it.

I ignored phone calls, emails and text messages asking me what was up, until I was ready formulate my response.

Then I let him have it – I won’t print the letter although I did save it, because who DOESN’T at some point dream of telling his or her nightmare boss that they are IGNORANT, IRRESPONSIBLE, INCOMPETENT and an IMBECILE. And those are just some of the words I used in my forceful and still diplomatic resignation email after the fact.

The days that followed were constant phone calls promising $ and raises to get me back. Having already made myself clear, I ignored them.

And then the boss did it.

To find me I guess to persuade me to come back and locate video resources and elements that only I knew of…

HE SHOWED UP AT MY OLD PLACE LOOKING FOR ME.

Lucky that my former roommate is a strong woman who can probably kick the shit out of most men. But what if she wasn’t? What if it was my mom? My sister? My girlfriend? Strong women all, but not if its some crazy guy who is about to lose millions.

I’m generally a nice guy, but there are limits.

I phoned my boss and told him off vocally, that there was NO excuse for showing up in person and that if I see him anywhere near my space, that he wouldn’t be looking for videos, but he’d be on the floor in a matter of seconds looking for lost teeth.

I haven’t heard from him since.

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This is the job that I chose over staying on full with my partners Romeo and Caroline. Honestly, I am still down til the end, but it really did break my heart.

I had no choice… debt was getting crazy out of hand and this job offered a chance to erase a lot of that. So, for the first time EVER… I chose MONEY over LOVE.

They have made me so proud and one of the ideas floating around from when it was a 3 legged tripod still has come to fruition… the FEATURE FILM that we ALL have dreamt of has begun principal photography.

So, good things are happening… and a HUGE hole remains in me, because I started that with them and I bowed out of the adventure so I could take care of REAL LIFE. It was the BIGGEST sacrifice I have ever had to make and I think about it at least once every day.

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Since last week I have been on the hustle. Hitting the pavement to make sure that I’m not jobless for long.

I was lucky enough to get swung a great project teaching video to kids in the city’s challenged neighbourhoods. Just the kind of thing I want to do.

Still, only a month long contract.

What would I do after?

The stress of uncertainty plus all the poetry shows going on is leaving me exhausted; my muscles ache, my bones feel worn.

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The other week I was complaining to Rosalyn about how things are so hard — why I’ve given so much from the heart and why is it always a fight… a struggle… a hustle. It’s been like that forever, and I’m getting tired.

I have always chosen love, faith, creativity, idealism… and that’s a path less taken and cubicles that contain those things are in short supply.

But I hate the fact that my life’s theme phrase has always been

“It’s all about the love”

and

“Something’s Gotta Give”

I’ve paid NUFF dues. LOVE NEEDS TO START PAYING ME BACK.

Leaps of faith are good, but for once… I want to stick the landing.

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SUNDAY

I got a call.

“Leonard Cervantes, you seem perfect for a job. Come in on Monday and talk about it.”

And so I did, and I was perfect.

IRONICALLY, the things that made me attractive to them were the things in my life that I had done out of LOVE, FAITH, IDEALISM and the like. They liked the fact that I worked on St. Jamestown with my friends, the fact that I worked with YOUTH for so many years, the fact that I worked on FLIPtv.

They didn’t care how much money I made at that last job, or what degrees I held.

They wanted to know how much of the breadth and depth of my life I could bring into the job as well as my technical knowledge and skill, which was all learned on the LOVE projects, not the $$ ones.

As of today, the called right back and snapped me up off the free agent market.

3 business days after walking out of my OLD JOB…

I’m walking into HERE as the newest Producer on the staff.

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And I’ve waiting for THIS my whole life.

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They say, “Don’t give up… do what you love… the money will follow… follow your passion”

and here it is… the prophecy manifested.

So I’m not in the Philippines with my friends working on the movie. Maybe I’m meant to be here doing this. Maybe I’ll make a power move that enables my friends and I to break into Canadian TV. Who knows?

What I do know is, that today, I’m a product of ALL I’ve done and it finally feels good.

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Giving Back.

Posted in Stuff on February 28, 2006 by Leonard

I’ll be performing at both.

Pass the WORDS.

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kapwa relief benefit

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Shows Up My Arse

Posted in Stuff on February 26, 2006 by Leonard

I’ve been working so hard at this poetry thing — it’s an amazing thing when you can focus on your art and make it come from your heart, great things happen.

Last week’s Real Love show didn’t have that much people but I felt ON. The good grace of my friends’ support, telling me that I’ve improved means a lot and that’s fuel to the fire.

This past weekend’s “TALES FROM THE FLIPSIDE” shows were awesome. I’ve never felt better on stage.

Impassioned performances have led to invitations to perform all over the city again and it’s going to be a busy next few weeks – and I love it.

March 5
IT TAKES A VILLAGE…. Mudslide Benefit at Reilly’s
(me and some of the Poetry Collective will share the stage with some of the talent in the Filipino Community)

March 7
Benefit at Supermarket
(with Esthero, Shawn Hewitt, LAL, Stop Die Resusscitate! I am SO HONOURED to do this one with some of Toronto’s BEST)

March 15
Rally for Justice for Jeffrey Coalition
(its in front of Police Headquarters on International Day Against Police Brutality – this should be interesting)

April 1
Cross Currents Festival Kickoff
(This is a theatre Festival and I’m always happy to do Theatre events because my experience with Magno lent so much to my work as a poet)

April 2
FROM THE BAMBOO

I gotta figure out a way to make this work for me… sheeeiiizzz.

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I’m trying to figure out if this is cool or not worth it

Posted in Stuff on February 23, 2006 by Leonard

I mean, they ARE has-beens so its pricey, then again that Blackstreet was pretty much the soundtrack of my life during University days…

I may be down for the cheap seats…

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New Jack Swing Tour
feat. Guy, Blackstreet, Teddy Reilly, SWV and Toni Tony Tone

CA $55.50 – CA $95.50

Internet Onsale Info
Onsale to General Public:
Thu, 02/23/06 10:00 AM EST

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NEW JACK SWING TOUR
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HERSHEY CENTRE
5500 ROSE CHERRY PLACE
FRI MARCH 24 2006 7:30PM

I HAVE A CRUSH ON THIS GIRL

Posted in Stuff on February 20, 2006 by Leonard

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She’s the coolest.

REAL LOVE WITH P-LOVE, Feb 17, 2006

Posted in Stuff on February 18, 2006 by Leonard

PHOTOS COURTESY OF ALEX FELIPE.
(he is so talented)

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Deanz Vargas on the Djembe. Leonard Cervantes on the mic. Bamboo Kings on the set.

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F.L.I.P.

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The Return of Ozfrankie

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Kate Delmo rocking out

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Drunken Monkz polishing wood

WHY

Posted in Stuff on February 17, 2006 by Leonard

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If you’ve been to the Philippines and done something as simple as rode in a car through Manila and have had to turn away from the little girl knocking at the window asking for change, then you know the feeling of seeing poverty, being privileged and not knowing what to do about it all too well.

1500 dead in a mudslide in the Philippines.

A natural disaster, I guess. You can’t blame that on anyone, but then again… if you look at the village and the people, and map out the history of it, you’d probably find that the reason for it existing, or being there, or being so close to a dangerous mud-mountain…

you’ll probably find that is a result of economy, or lack thereof.

they are probably there because they have to be… just like we are here because we can be and want to be….

then you see that we are lucky… so very lucky

and that’s when it hits you… no it crushes you and you feel the connection

you’re not so different from them and its just by chance that the roles aren’t switched.

as if its you and not them…

then you wonder if there’s anything at all you can do